Days 10 - 20 Ten Days Later! -___-

I apologize. Maybe my New Year's Resolution should not be to blog everyday. I failed.

However, I will continue to blog. If not everyday, than every other day or as often I can.

I am back in Potsdam! It is great to be here. This semester will be very good for me...I can feel it.

I do not know what to blog about.

You know what I have realized lately. I also tend to start of my typing with "I" how conceded. It's annoying to look at. I wish I knew what to blog about. Lately my emotions just flood me!

I am drawing a blank... I seriously do not know what to type about...

Day 10

I NEED to have a day when I can actually sit down and blog. Unfortunately, I have not been able too!

Cheers to Day 10.

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Day 7, 8, & 9

Gah! Okay Okay.

I know blog everyday! These past few days have been crazy. I was so hyped up on Benadryll, that all I could do was sleep.

I owe myself, and you all, a good blog. Tonight however, won't be it.

Sorry! Crazy busy!

Tomorrow!!!!!!!!

Day 6

I seriously cannot get over being sick!

The doctor told me that I have a 5% chance of having an allergic reaction to my antibiotic, after it takes effect.

Tonight it took affect, and I am now breaking out in hives!

I have taken a Benadryll, and if that doesn't work...looks like it is back to the E.R.

My life! -____________-

Day 5

Turns out my anti-biotics will not kick in until 24 to 48 hours. It has yet to be 24 hours. Therefore, I am not feeling better.

My Great Grandmothers funeral was today. It was sweet. She lived a long life, and today was my first experience in a limo! It was not that exciting.

I was thinking.... 

I want something to be more to my blog.

 A purpose kind of. 

I want it to be more than just a place that I can come to, to escape and complain about my problems periodically. Than again. If I use it for only that reason does it seem redundant? Well, yeah, but there isn't anything wrong with that, right? Aside the obvious things.

One thing that has been on my mind lately, is my life. Where is it going? What am I doing with it?

It seems that everyone around me is always one foot ahead of me with everything! Everyone just catches on a second faster than I! 

I envy them!

 

If you ask me right now, "What is one thing you are passionate about?"  I could not give you an answer.

That is what I envy! Peoples passion. 

Everyone seems to have something that they are good at, or intelligent in. 

I like with 5 other guys, and each one of them has an idea on what they are going to do with their lives. I don't know.

5 suitemates 

5 musicians 

3 viola (there is their passion) David, Dave, and Tim.

1 vocalist (passion)   Matt

1 pianist (passion) Sam

Hans......cricket chips.....

A lot of my friends as well.

Philip- Politics, Classics, History. 

Well all I can think of Philip, because we are skyping, but you catch my drift! 

I know that this is more complaining, but I just do not know what to do. I am majoring in Business Administration with a  concentration in Accounting and a Minor in French.

But let's keep it real folks. I am not good at either of those things.

It's not self-loathing. Just honesty, which can be cruel. 

I think this will be another thing to add to my list of goals.

Find something to be passionate about.

Also, I want to become very discipline with my school work. 

I know how I operate, and it WILL NOT get me very far.

Hans's 2012 New Year's Resolution:  (subject to change)

Blog everyday this year.

Work out (Beach Body)

Find a job on campus. 

Find something to be passionate about. 

Self discipline. (Academics)

God help me! 

Til Tomorrow. 

Day 4 (con't)

It's 11:25 p.m. Not quite Day 5 yet.

As I stated already, today I went to my Great Grandmothers viewing. (That's what I meant to call it earlier)

And I was scared.

I've never seen a dead body before, well when my grandfather passed away I believe it was an open casket , but I was about 6!

Today, at the funeral parlor I saw Nana's body. I don't know why, but I was just shocked.

It was a strange feeling.

Anyway. I was still severely sick, so I went to the E.R.

I now have Anti-Biotics, Benadryll, Soup, Water, and tissues.

Time to recover!

Unfortunately, I have to wake up at 6:30 a.m. to drive to Jersey for the funeral.

Day 4

I still do not feel any better. It is awful!  Today should be interesting, because I have to go to New Jersey to my Great-Grandmother wake/family gathering, and I am literally gross.

I cannot breath. I haven't shaved in weeks. My nose is stuffed and runny. My eyes swollen. I am sneezing coughing, and for some reason I cannot stop shivering.

Not the way I would like to welcome old family relatives that I have not seen in awhile. If by this weekend I do not feel better I will go to the Doctor. I hope this isn't anything too serious.

WHY IS IT SO COLD ON LONG ISLAND?

Apparently, last night was the most coldest night Long Island has seen so far, and today it is going to be the same.

I normally do not mind the cold,, but it is so unbearable right now. Maybe it is because I am sick?

Of course being surrounded by water probably does not help!