Fuck the drama! Fuck my complaining! Fuck it all!
You know how they say, "Don't ever take anything to seriously. It won't matter in the future anyway."
Everyday I find myself believing that even more and more. Everyday I find myself developing my own sense of character.
I feel right now that my life is coming together. The pieces of the jig saw puzzle are finally depicting a picture of who am I meant to be.
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Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Saturday, June 18, 2011
This is going to be a long one....
SPOILER ALERT***
The is going to sound depressing and pessimistic. I apologize ahead of time, but if you can see what I have to go through on a daily basis you yourself would say, "Yeah it's kind of hard for him to be happy right now."
So let's cover the basis right now.
In February, I think it was February...Anyway in February my Mother moved out. Now, that is okay with me. I didn't cry about it, or get upset. I know I am a heartless son of a bitch. However, I did not get upset, I was okay with it.
Now, being home with my Mother not here at first was weird, but after a few days I got over it. Just kept doing what I was doing.
I'll just skip to why I am upset right now. I wake up at like 11:15 a.m. and my Mother was in my driveway waiting for my little brothers to go outside to her. Well she called me and we talked, and something my Mother does is she yells, a lot! I asked her where she was going, and she began to get into this whole rant about how she was suppose to be here earlier but the "boys" (my little brothers) weren't awake. I hate people yell at me, especially when I just first wake up in the morning. So, I started to yell at her saying not to yell at me, all I did was ask you a simple question, I don't need a story behind it.
This all sounds stupid. It probably is, so stopped reading if you want. I could honestly care less...
While we were having our little squabble she brought said something along the lines of this, "Well why do you care? You don't call me anyway?"
This is true. I do not call my Mother. Only, because I have been working.
I told her this, she's like well how am I suppose to know that you're working.
Argued about that for a bit.
So yeah. This is not the best way for the morning to start, let alone the entire day.
Other things have been bothering me too.
I am debating on whether or not I should tell you'll.
One thing that has been bothering me is that, I feel like I am losing my patience. It weird and hard to explain, but I feel as though my patience level -which is generally very high, more then most peoples- is starting to decrease, even if it's by a little I can still feel it.
The is going to sound depressing and pessimistic. I apologize ahead of time, but if you can see what I have to go through on a daily basis you yourself would say, "Yeah it's kind of hard for him to be happy right now."
So let's cover the basis right now.
In February, I think it was February...Anyway in February my Mother moved out. Now, that is okay with me. I didn't cry about it, or get upset. I know I am a heartless son of a bitch. However, I did not get upset, I was okay with it.
Now, being home with my Mother not here at first was weird, but after a few days I got over it. Just kept doing what I was doing.
I'll just skip to why I am upset right now. I wake up at like 11:15 a.m. and my Mother was in my driveway waiting for my little brothers to go outside to her. Well she called me and we talked, and something my Mother does is she yells, a lot! I asked her where she was going, and she began to get into this whole rant about how she was suppose to be here earlier but the "boys" (my little brothers) weren't awake. I hate people yell at me, especially when I just first wake up in the morning. So, I started to yell at her saying not to yell at me, all I did was ask you a simple question, I don't need a story behind it.
This all sounds stupid. It probably is, so stopped reading if you want. I could honestly care less...
While we were having our little squabble she brought said something along the lines of this, "Well why do you care? You don't call me anyway?"
This is true. I do not call my Mother. Only, because I have been working.
I told her this, she's like well how am I suppose to know that you're working.
Argued about that for a bit.
So yeah. This is not the best way for the morning to start, let alone the entire day.
Other things have been bothering me too.
I am debating on whether or not I should tell you'll.
One thing that has been bothering me is that, I feel like I am losing my patience. It weird and hard to explain, but I feel as though my patience level -which is generally very high, more then most peoples- is starting to decrease, even if it's by a little I can still feel it.
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Quote
Life is a test, you may win this test or fail this test, it demends on how hard to work for the end result… *
It not what a place makes of you but what you make of a place… *
God only test the ones who he knows can get through it…*
Hope for the best but Perpare for the worst…*
The ones you wait for are the ones who keep you behind!
Monday, June 13, 2011
Sunday, June 12, 2011
I'm your biggest fan, I'll follow you until you love me.
Congrats Hans it's 3:19 am. And you're blogging. And who knows what time you're going to be done at.
Started work today at Walmart! or Wally world. Why do people call it Wally World anyway? It sounds so dumb. (no offense to the people that call it that)
All I can say is, is that it is going to consume my life! Which is good and bad.
GOOD:
Getting paid..a lot!
Keeping me out of my house
Have to wake up early, so I will finally start to develop a better sleep schedule
Make the summer go by really quickly
BAD:
Won't be able to go anywhere
Probably be to tired to play on Xbox Live which I promised my best friend I do
Won't be online as much
Currently I am skypping with my friend Michael. Figured I'd throw that in there.
What else?
I'm talking to this kid. What?!! Look at me making moves :]
Nothing official yet, so there's nothing to get exciting over, but we will see. Just keep your fingers crossed! :]
So I am thinking, but in all honest I don't know what to talk about. Even though normally I have so much to write down.
Maybe because it's summer. I am not in school, and not surrounded by things that could lead to excitement.
Which is good because I am away from drama, but at the same time I kind of miss it.
Seems weird I know, but I missed the fact that my mind isn't consumed with things anymore.
I know I know I should NOT be complaining, and I am not. I am just stating a fact.
Started work today at Walmart! or Wally world. Why do people call it Wally World anyway? It sounds so dumb. (no offense to the people that call it that)
All I can say is, is that it is going to consume my life! Which is good and bad.
GOOD:
Getting paid..a lot!
Keeping me out of my house
Have to wake up early, so I will finally start to develop a better sleep schedule
Make the summer go by really quickly
BAD:
Won't be able to go anywhere
Probably be to tired to play on Xbox Live which I promised my best friend I do
Won't be online as much
Currently I am skypping with my friend Michael. Figured I'd throw that in there.
What else?
I'm talking to this kid. What?!! Look at me making moves :]
Nothing official yet, so there's nothing to get exciting over, but we will see. Just keep your fingers crossed! :]
So I am thinking, but in all honest I don't know what to talk about. Even though normally I have so much to write down.
Maybe because it's summer. I am not in school, and not surrounded by things that could lead to excitement.
Which is good because I am away from drama, but at the same time I kind of miss it.
Seems weird I know, but I missed the fact that my mind isn't consumed with things anymore.
I know I know I should NOT be complaining, and I am not. I am just stating a fact.
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Oh Hello!
Gah it's been awhile since I have last blogged. I honestly can say that I have missed it.
So summer is here. I am out of school. I got what I wanted. I hate it.
Long Island is so boring and especially since I don't have a car I can't really go anywhere.
I start work on Saturday though...Thank God. It'll get me out of the house.
I honestly can't think of anything more to write, so I will leave it here, and pick it up again in the future.
Hans Butler
So summer is here. I am out of school. I got what I wanted. I hate it.
Long Island is so boring and especially since I don't have a car I can't really go anywhere.
I start work on Saturday though...Thank God. It'll get me out of the house.
I honestly can't think of anything more to write, so I will leave it here, and pick it up again in the future.
Hans Butler
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